Back to Life
My professor once told me in life we’re often attracted to the roller coasters. The things the take us really high, drop us really low and brings us back up swiftly but life should be full of merry go rounds, still with ups and downs yet at a consistent even pace.
Have you ever been so caught up in chaos that it’s comfortable? Dumb shit, like truly bizarre behavior was overlooked, accepted, loved on, lol, all while I was claiming I was attracted to peace. I have spent so much time fighting with career choices, keeping up with people and stuff, pullin’ when I should be pushin’ and runnin’ where I should be walkin’ that I was beyond confused, indecisive and reckless. Recently I have experienced so much peace that I thirst for it. You know when you start drinking water so much you really want more water? Yeah… That’s how much I have a thang for peace and since we now go together, REAL BAD, I have served chaos a cease and desist.
That’s it; I fell in love with peace and there is not a long list on how, I simply became decided. I am dedicated to consistently reminding myself how important peace is, how better I am walking in it and of course God is leading the way. At first it feels like lack or boredom but then you’ll notice your shoulders sitting lower, yourself taking deeper breathes and everything flowing. Zero forcing, most things feel like a dance where you are following God’s lead. The lack of control no longer scares me, I relish in its rest. I pray very specific, intentional prayers for our world, the government, discernment, alignment and obedience, friends, family, and of course, anyone I’ve ever loved. I notice when I feel rushed and assess for edits. I’ve deleted IG and Twitter off my phone until at least 2023, I’m back to volunteering and my home is clean. If you know me when my house is clean it’s clean but when it is not Baby the laundry grows legs and takes up residence in every corner, lol, but not anymore. Oh, and I FORGIVE MYSELF QUICKLY. Mishaps happen, I remind myself I’m human, grab the take away and forgive myself with in moments; not days or weeks, moments. I realized shame was a huge hindrance of mine so we broke up, I called off the wedding and I’m no longer accepting his calls, lol.✌🏾
What do you need to break up with and who do you need to block??? What is obstructing God’s voice and stopping peace from flowing all up and through your life? Between you and I it’s only you so get out of the way. Stop playing with your destiny and get the life you see in your dreams by clearing out the distractions. Get Back To Life. “Back To Realty” #SincerelyJam💋