Recently I went swimming for the first time in a long time. I taught myself how to swim as a child over 20 years ago. Since then I’ve played in water and near water but nothing like the summers of staying at my grandparent’s house when you only get out of the pool for the bathroom or to eat. During my recent swim, a nice lady at the pool taught me how to do different swimming styles but I was having trouble with floating. She was more voluptuous than I and the water gracefully held her. I wanted that. I wanted that badly but every time I tried, I sank. We attempted multiple times yet I could not turn my thoughts down therefore they weighed me down. Y’all hear me?!? I overthought it and continued to WEIGH MYSELF DOWN.

My own mind was getting in the way of what my body could do naturally. I wanted to rest there looking at the sky, similar to Laura Linney in the Big C, but my perfectionism wouldn’t allow me that opportunity. Instead of enjoying the ease of it I did myself the injustice of trying to get it right. How rude of me?All up and in my own way. Are you in your own way? Move! Don’t do my friend like that! Get out of your head and allow yourself to do what you are designed to do. We all have a grand purpose. Something God has placed in our souls, the thing we are drawn to, and dream about. Our intuition even guides us towards it but we sometimes shy away from it. Go fearlessly to whatever that is! Most of us are scared to be great because that requires work and exposure which we don’t think we can conquer but if God put it in us he has prepared us for it. If it is pulling us and relentlessly reminding us it is there all we have to do is start. FLOAT. Lean your head back. Breathe. Now allow yourself to become exactly who you were created to be. #SincerelyJamara