Green Light

I’m indecisive. I take that back I use to be indecisive. I would seek counsel in almost everything I did. Now counsel isn’t a bad thing at all but not trusting yourself is. For years I got a lot wrong which made my soul anxious. At work and in personal decisions I would bounce ideas on people around me for guidance and to sort through my thoughts. As a recovering perfectionist I literally will not do things because I don’t know how. I find myself wanting my home perfect and my budget exact. I don’t like making mistakes. Lol, until this week I didn’t realize that in itself is a mistake. I haven’t allowed myself to be human.

Do you know how much pressure that is? I’m sure you do because I know I am not alone in this battle. I’ve reminded friends they’re human and are allowed to make mistakes, but I haven’t allowed myself the same courtesy. I placed unrealistic expectations and timeframes on myself and probably others unknowingly. Even the things I for sure have been playing with and I should have completed I haven’t accomplished because I haven’t given myself a safe space to finish the tasks. To simply do safe things and see how well it ends up. I don’t know everything, but I know what I know and all though I’ve made numerous bad decisions I’ve made more good ones.

I gotta trust myself. You gotta trust yourself too. Trust yourself to get it right. Trust yourself to know how to learn if you get it wrong. Trust yourself to succeed and train yourself to know getting it wrong might actually be the path to getting it right. For most great things there isn’t a blueprint. You have to take risk and step out on faith. The journey isn’t paved with perfection. Some things you have to get wrong to get it right. Some perspectives come from the mishaps of life. Give yourself the green light. Join me! Let’s go and fall forward.