Piece of Clay
I’m back in therapy and it feels so good! Since I’m asking God daily for healthy God fearing relationships I wanted to ensure I can hold my weight in gold. Plus cleaning up this blood line for my future kids is really important too. That’s how I activate my faith; I prepare for what I’ve asked and walk in a way to receive it. My therapist is guiding me to responsible self care. I honestly think buying the shoes feels better than saving the money. I’m learning it’s not an instant gratification thing or a self-control thing but a what I value thing. We talked about getting the bigger picture which of course I can find value in too but I will have to keep it at the forefront whenever shopping takes place. Now y’all know me and of course I’ve taken this lesson into other areas of my life as well and examined how I value people.
For years I thought encouraging people to be their best selves was noble of me and it can be, but it also can make people feel like they aren’t enough. I’m huge on love and support so I want to make sure I’m fully loving people where they’re at today.
If I’m sharing love with you it’s about you not your potential or what I think you should be. Who am I to think you should be a thing or move a way? I mean clearly I do love my people for who they are but I’m constantly trying to upgrade everything when it’s a lot of value in the current. It’s a lot of peace in the current too because it’s not even my job, lol, my job is to love like God. The way I’m currently deciding to help someone be their best is supporting who they are today. I’m not saying I’ll watch friends run into walls yet everything doesn’t need constant amending. I can pray for people and love people by being who I can be to them in the moment. The way I’m doing this is by allowing myself to be who I am in the moment too. I’ve spent A LOT of time should of, could of, would ofing so I’m now allowing myself the room to not be perfect or under constant repair as well. I am choosing to remind myself of all that I am, not all that I’m not yet. God made me. He has moved me from angry to joyful, a fighter to a lover; he will take me exactly where I need to go at the exact time I need to get there. Today, I am more than enough.
Today I can mind my business and let my friends and family move how they like and enjoy what they like. I pray for them daily, God has them covered and minding my business is a full time job so I journal more, release and talk less. Now when someone asks my opinion, I will pray about what they need (not give them what I want them to have), share that, support, love and Mind My Business. I pray everyone allows me to live my life the same and that I focus on this responsible self care cause I got enough shoes anyway, lol. Please pray for me too! And know, today you are more than enough, in this very moment, just as you are. Please let me know if there is any way I can pray for you too and as always thanks for reading. #SincerelyJam 🦋🌸💎