Frozen Creek
My mind has at least 10 tabs open at a time. I’m always thinking of a master plan, trying to save the world, finding a solution to a problem that may never occur, over thinking my way into a problem and solving someone else’s problem. Lol, sounds like I need a nap. Seriously all that figuring out leaves me with an oversized to do list, overwhelmed and unsatisfied.
Anthony Green of Circa Survive said he wrote the lyrics to Frozen Creek in an abandoned house, they often practiced in near a river, while in a weird head space and feeling unsatisfied. Have you ever felt unsatisfied? Like you want more or been unsure about how to get to the next step? This week I was frustrated because I don’t know what’s next. I haven’t finish writing my book, I’m starting a non-profit with little fundraising knowledge, I don’t know my husband, when I’ll get married or have my twins (yes, I’m having twins, no they don’t run in my family, but I will, lol). Then I became frustrated with my frustration. I know I serve an awesome God who has NEVER failed me, everything always turns out good, so I was disappointed with my doubt. I had to remember I am only human and sometimes I forget that it’s ok to not have it all figured out. To think I can is silly. I took a couple of days, sat still, and turned my thoughts towards what I know for sure. Life Is Great. I’m actually in an amazing part of my life. I work for a great organization, my friendships are thriving, I’m constantly meeting dope new people, I’m not entertaining BS and I am mentally, physically, and spiritually the healthiest I have ever been. Life being consistently this cool is uncommon for me, I don’t even know how to enjoy it.
Now I am dwelling in this and breathing it all in. I must adjust to this being my new normal, one day at a time and not rush to what’s next. I will achieve more, I will grow, create more goals, and conquer those too but I will not rush through that either. Our lives have seasons. Just like the creek some seasons flow and others don’t but all seasons are perfect how they are. So that is my prayer for us. That we notice and appreciate our current season for all the goodness that is there because there is some. If we can’t see it, we simply must be still and shift our focus for it to appear.