Jezebel

I am a planner and a dreamer. In previous relationships I’d create baby names that started with my significant others first initial (yes, I’m that type and I’m proud of it). Unfortunately, when I leave those relationships I choose to leave the baby names too. So while growing in love with myself I’ve decided to have J babies. It makes total sense, right!?! We all have his last name and my first initial. I’m the one doing the heavy lifting, lol, so I want a stamp on my property too. While thinking of names I added Jezebel to the list. Isn’t that name gorgeous!?! Sad thing is it’s highly unlikely I’ll name my daughter that because the negative connotation may have her fighting an uphill battle. It sucks cause I can see a young lady with that name being strong, confident, smart, and free; similar to Cleopatra, I think they’re both misunderstood.

Jezebel was a Queen, the wife of a King Ahab. She ruled, commanded and killed. Not praising her views or actions cause she was wicked simply wondering why we forgive others for their wicked ways but not hers. Before reading Jezebel’s story I heard she was sexually immoral and that’s nowhere in the Bible. She was powerful and used her gifts against God and y’all know we love God so I’m not defending her actions yet I’m confused on why we haven’t let it go. You have a family member right now that you love that is sinning today, lol, and you’ve extended them grace numerous times. David had Bathsheba’s husband killed after he got her pregnant. Eve persuaded Adam to commit the first sin that has us all working to date, lol, but ain’t nobody still mad at her and not naming their kids after them.

And aren’t we not supposed to judge, like why do we care so much? Why is the past so present? Even typing this something in me is whispering don’t glorify Jezebel but that’s not this. This is why do we hold on to other people’s sins?!? Every human makes mistakes. Often. Why is it so hard to let go of some? We will hold on to conversations and feelings when the other person has moved on with their lives. We’ll carry around old stuff that doesn’t even belong to us.

If you switched outfits before leaving the house, you’re no longer wearing it. If you don’t think about it anymore and I can’t see it is it relevant? You switched because it didn’t fit or feel right so you changed. YOU CHANGED. No, outfits and character aren’t the same thing, but people do change, we should let them and embrace our own evolution. I understand the past can be scary, trusting can be scary too so get some boundaries but you gotta forgive.

Forgiveness needs to be a real thing not just a thought or saying. Actually, let it go. The past is too heavy to keep carrying it around. Let It Go. Progress. Keep lightening the load. Especially of other people’s stuff, that’s basically stealing, and I know your mother didn’t raise a thief, lol. Seriously, let it go. We can’t walk in purpose with boulders on our back. Allow the past to propel and teach, not hinder, or hold back. Please! Now Go Forth and Be Great. Happy December y’all make it the best month yet. #SincerelyJam💋